God's Will

The other day someone said to me, "If God had meant me to fly, He would have given me wings."  Although I have heard this saying countless times, I never really took the time to think about it.  How can any of us, mere human beings, possibly know what God's will is?  If He had never meant us to fly, he probably wouldn't have given us advanced brains that help us build technology.  If He had never meant for us to leave the Garden of Eden, he wouldn't have given us free will.  Life is hard enough without constantly wondering what God has in store for us.  Although complicated and painful at times, the one thing we should hold on to is that God has a plan for all of us, whether or not we choose to believe it or adhere to it. 

Deep

"Worry about the things you can control, pray about the things you can't."  I can't remember where I heard this quote, but I remind myself of it all the time.  I have figured out a lot of things in my 29+ years, and one big thing is that I can't control everything, no matter how hard I try.  None of us are perfect, it's one of the things that makes us human.  The mistakes that we make, the trials we go through, they're what make us human.  Today I was wondering, if I knew I was going to die tomorrow, what would I do today?  And I realized that, I'm doing everything thing I can right now to get where I want to be in the future.  I'm going to school, working hard, and planning my future with my husband.  I have a surgical consult on 1/17 to *hopefully* find a solution to my back pain.  My family and friends know how much I love them, even if I don't get to see them or say it enough.  I imagine that, if I knew I were going to die tomorrow, I would try to see everyone before I went.  I wouldn't regret a thing.  It feels good to think that I don't have regrets anymore.  There are a million things in this life I probably would've done differently if I knew better, but it all has made me who I am.  All of my loved ones accept me for who I am, and it's about time I do the same.  It sounds kind of morbid I know, but I guess it's the best way to explain that I am content where I am in life.  None of us knows what the future holds, so we should do all we can to make the best of ourselves while we can.

Don't Ask Don't Tell

http://news.yahoo.com/s/atlantic/20101210/cm_atlantic/dontaskdonttellrepealfails6134_1

It's a sad day in this country when what we have built this democracy on is not enforced.  "All Men Are Created Equal", I guess that's unless they're different.  This policy makes me sick; it is everything that is wrong with politics.  It forces gay soldiers to hide their lifestyle to keep their job.  How is this policy different than that of Hitler's?  There is plenty of research showing that there is a biological tie with homosexuality.  Being gay is no more of a choice than having blue eyes.  And even if it was a choice, who gives any of us the right to say that choice is wrong?  Is it wrong to be Catholic, Protestant, to dye your hair, wear colored contacts, to go to college or not go to college, to serve your country or to serve your fellow man?  It wasn't that long ago that we considered Blacks less human that Whites (by 1/3, to be exact).  How is this different?  How can we say we are a country based on freedom and democracy while we are violating the civil rights of others?  Who are we to tell another who they can love, marry, live with, adopt children with?  And if I hear one more person argue the point with the Bible I will scream.  Everyone chooses to use the Bible in whatever way they see fit.  Did you know that, besides homosexuality, the Bible also forbids sex with a woman during her period, planting two different types of seed in fields, wearing clothing that is made of more than one material, eat fruit from a tree you planted for three years, eating meat with any blood left in it, tattoos, shaving sideburns, consulting psychics, and actually says that priests can marry, but it must be to a virgin?  Look it up, it's in the book of Leviticus. 

Bringing everyone up to speed

Ok so I made sure to get all the good stuff out of my system before actually writing a serious blog.  Things on this end are going very well, actually.  Jeremy finally finished his Master’s thesis and ended up with a 3.9 GPA overall.  I’m really proud of him; he worked his butt off for it!  Not he’s working on a certificate in Criminal Justice; apparently he’s as interested in criminals as I am!  I’m winding down my first Master’s class, and I’m getting an A in it so far so that’s exciting.  We had a great trip to Illinois for Christmas; Preston came with us so that made it all the better.  Can’t wait to go to Michigan for Christmas so he will finally meet my side of the family!  We got to go see Caitlin and Chloe the other night, Chloe is growing and changing so fast it’s amazing!  She’s such a beautiful, sweet baby, I’m so glad we get to be a part of her life!  I have a surgical consult for my back next month, so maybe after 10 years I might get a little relief from all this pain.  Of course everyone at work is freaking out, but I’m pretty sure we’ll manage through it.  Other than that it’s pretty much the mundane, everyday stuff on our end.  Not that I mind, we’re pretty happy that way J

Things I LOVE (Sarcasm)

1.       People who claim to be CHRISTIAN while judging others and living in sin

2.       A “father” who chooses a whore over his own child

3.       People who talk big then threaten to go to the police when you talk back

4.       Women who don’t want to have children because it will “ruin” their body, people like that are so self-centered they shouldn’t have children anyway!

5.       People who brag about how skinny they are while starving themselves and purging

6.       People who epitomize the phrases “Can’t see the forest for the trees” and “People who live in glass houses shouldn’t throw rocks”

7.       People who can’t spell.  Look, if you’re insulting me via text/email, please spell check first.  I can’t take you seriously otherwise.

Basically, I hate hypocrites.  Now I may not be a role model, but I say what I mean and mean what I say.  I tell people like it is, and many times people don’t like it.  But I don’t care.  I will never be accused of being fake or sugar coating things.  I guess it’s the Yankee in me.

Intro

I’m not perfect, but I know who I am.  You can insult me, spit in my face, chew me up, spit me out, and kick me while I’m down, but you can never take that from me.  I’m a good wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, co-worker, and student.  I’m a good person, one who loves my family, friends, and God.  One who will stand up for what’s right, even in the face of danger.  My friends will tell you that I am loyal and devoted.  You can say that I’m a mean person or a bad mother, but I know that I am neither.  You can harass me and threaten me with false accusations; it is of no consequence to me.  Because the truth always prevails, karma finds its way around, and God sees everything.  I have put myself in danger for complete strangers more than once, and I wouldn’t hesitate to do it again.  One thing I will admit is that I’m sort of a “mother bear”; if you leave me alone and don’t bother my family, I won’t seek you out.  If you bother me, I may get grumpy and take a swipe, but nothing would come unprovoked.  However, if you mess with my cubs, you will be in a world of hurt.  My family and close friends are my cubs.  I would do anything for them.  I would die for them.  From the outside, that loyalty could be perceived as a bit crazy, but I know they would do the same for me.  So if you’re on the receiving end, I do apologize, but it’s only in my nature.